Dream or Imagination

Dream? Do you have a dream? Everybody do right? You dream every time when you're sleeping. Inception? Did you watch that movie? Dream within a dream within a dream within a dream....within a dream. Too many layers until you don't even it's a dream or reality. Actually, I means your dream. The dream you want to achieve in the future. Something you always wanted to be in the future.

When I was a little girl, I always wanted to build my own house and had a mindset that it was so easy to build. I just need a piece of land, woods, screws, hammers and I'm done. Every time my art teacher gave us an assignment on free drawing, anything we want, we can, we like and we dream of, I will always draw a house. Imagine I spent my 6 years of primary school drawing houses.

I live in my grandma's house. Among all our relatives, we don't have our own house as we can't afford to buy. My parents always trying to save money for us to have a better life. But we already enjoying a life with my grandma. Nothing is missing although there is some pressure given to my parents. Years after years, life still going on and I'm grown up. I'm still want to build a house for my family. Buy a land in Brunei, build a big house which is designed by myself. Each person has one room and my parents have the master room.

When I was 16, after my 'O' level, I came to Singapore to further my study. Things get tougher and harder. Money is not easy to earn. As everyday goes on and on, my imagination goes wild.
Here are what I imagine of:

1. After I finished my study and pay up all my loans, go back to Brunei to work. Start to earn money and save up to build a house.

2. Work in Singapore, earn more and save up. Secretly buy a house and a car. Book a ticket and flies back to Brunei without telling my parents. Drove the new car back to my grandma's house and give them a surprise.

3. Back to square one again. Earn and save more to build house. Don't care where I work, as long as high salary.

All these ideas I thought of was when I was taking my diploma. My mom once told me,"One day you will get married and have your family. Most importantly, must be happy."

"Mom, I will not get marry, I want to be single."

"Next time when you get old, you'll be lonely you know."

"I won't. Still have you and dad."

"We won't be there that day anymore."

"Choy!!! *Choy means don't say such unfortunate stuffs in chinese* you old I old. We old together and stay together. Marry? Guys are weird."

"........You will one day"

That time I think i'm so naive but still guys are weird. Not until I met him. When I was attached, I told my mom over the phone. "I...him...together..."

"You pa tou *pa tou means dating on chinese*?"

"yaaaaaa...*embarassed*"

"Mom, Chin Chin is going to marry soon."

"Mooooooom, is just starting only. Not married."

Basically, she fast forward my relationship status and I'm so surprise she is so happy for me. As I only know she don't agree all of us to start dating at the young ages. Maybe is all of friends' children are going to marry. my parents had been working so hard but still not earn enough to buy a house. I'm still half way through in my studies.

After 4 years of staying in Singapore, my mind changed. I decided not to go back and stayed here. House? No more. I want to bring them here instead. Imagine my family staying with me in a flat. Although it's not as big as house, but it's cosy. Imagine when I married and I earned a lot, I bought the whole floor which has 3 units. One unit for my parents, another unit for his parents and the last unit for me and my future husband (don't know who is him yet, still imagining. Who who who? xp). Every time can just gathered together cause just next door only. That's so perfect right? My imagination.

Sometimes, I can imagine all this randomly. Even in my dream too. Is this a dream or imagination? A dream with so many imagination and one day will come true. Probably every imaginations take out one small portion and combine together. Let's hope for that day. I do imagine too much. p/s even my future kids too. xp

Good night people. Dream big, imagine more. Love my dream and imagination. 
It's make my day too.

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